Putting on a mask, coz I NEED to.

Guess what? I lost one side of my contact lens again this morning. Bloody hell. Will be on spects for a couple of days then..

Freaking annoyed by ppl who gimme lousy comments to my briefing. First time in my life talking to such a big crowd (ok la.. ard 20+ ppl, and all the management for the damn fucking 1st session, I conducted 4 sessions, for all my 100 over staff!).. yah.. loser. I AM. Fuck. No encouragement, and fucked up by them.. and nobody mentioned about my effort for creating the slides. Damnn.. why don't these people just shut up their mouth n conduct the briefing by themselves? Asked the old staff to conduct the briefing then, guess they are worse than me, for the sake of opening their golden mouth.. DUMBS! And I got to do all the stupid consolidation.. everything is by me. what the damn fucking job is this. SICK of it. Okay.. at least I've started searching for a new job le... I will throw all these smelly shit to u ppl... go wipe ur face!! ArgH!

Really pissed off.. kinda dirty my blog with these ugly words.. but it's okay, at least I'm happier now.

Of coz it's not just the above that makes me wanna quit.. it's damn crazy working over the same pieces of docs (it's 'pieceS', not 'piece'), all laying around my desk, I brought them home and back to work like my meals.. never ending... and they are freaking tough! Complicating, longwinded, suffocating & taxing WORDS n POLICIES! wtf. Now I know why I nv like my job. and I've been stupidly stuck here for 3 years.. hahaha. no wonder I find myself look so old during these couples of months. Hiek! And this morning in the IWE briefing.. as I looked around.. I'm kinda proud of myself.. coz I nv see anyone of my age.. I'm really doing an 'adult' job - something youngster will hardly understand.. haha! (don't think dirty please.. I'm referring to the working world, no s*x talk)

Very agitated. Very hot tempered these couples of days. All coz of this damn boring job. and yeah.. poor social skill with my Parents, and the boy I love. Everything is just so lousy.

K. going home now. (Yeah, I'm at my desk. My very messy desk. I will take a picture of it now, and upload in my next blog.)

Nothing special

Boo.

Yup. I'm bored. Just read through my last blog. I always got so much to write... hmmm.

Just came back from Kickboxing.. 1st lesson of the new class. Luckily it's first class. Coz I was dead tire last nite.. after dbl o session with Jermaine & her friend. Well.. sat's music at dbl o is.. erm.. ahham. But I like the music @ obar.. it's aways R&B. but the place is really packed last nite.. n the bouncer is really fierce. Rude. Feel like giving him a tight slap. Well.. think the girls who went there last nite r kinda *turned off*.. heard some in the toilet who actually .. well.. I'm just there to enjoy the music n have fun actually. Dancing along with the music is cool. I just like R&B n hip music. soooo.. my style. But i think the problem there is .. the lighting is so dem.. can't see everyone's face.. so.. wat's the problem with the girl who keep going in to the toilet n touch up? Dah. My eyes were so dry last nite... freaking dry.. dunno y.

Work - I missed my deadline.. shit. tmr boss coming in and i guess i'm gonna get 'whack'... i better faster finalise the draft by today.

But i wanna go spotlight leh.. should I ah?

Go shower first la. :P

The mee soto @ the tampines round market is damn good. seems like i'm addicted to it!!! :P fattening wor..
kekeke.

I realised... it's Aug already. Wow. so fast. N i still owe Shiwei a special present. n i promised to get it done b4 my school's starting again..., coz her birthday was on 16 Jun. Ahahahaha!

:( actually i'm kinda worry bout my result for my econs' paper.. it's gonna elongate the duration for study if this paper's not gonna make it seh.. n means i got to re-study this stupid subject again! omg... :S

my bday is coming.. coming coming. next month. NEXT MONTH!

Hello, Hi & Bye.

Boo! I'm here to blog again. Was too busy for the last 2 months. Yep, busy and tire over my studies. Wow, and the 2 months flied damn fast. Many many things happened.



First, studies. Then exam. last week. Done. Now I've got 1 month of holiday. Hee. I can't wait for plan what to do without school. I missed my days out @ town b4 school started. And for studies, as expected, though I took a week to settle down @ home, i didn't study, and burnt mid-night oil the previous nite b4 econs exam. Serve me right. No mind of concentration. 'Fooling around'. Yeah.. i just dunhave the mood to study. and got quite pissed off, for being the targeted party to lend out my notes, but becoz i felt i owe it to her, (this fren of mine is quite nice in certain way, but can be pretty irritating la). Well.. I hope there's no more 'can lend me ur notes' in future. I just dunlike it. Kinda spoiled my mood to study actually. Weird me, but sorry, I just felt a breach of 'copyright' there. Haha.



2ndly. My braces. I finally get to change into a color tt I like. Mint green. *Gee* My teeth are straighten now, and still, with 4 gaps la. I missed my crooked teeth smile. The smile of mine just look different. I think i have not been smiling happily for a long long time. The smile of my face looks old and dull nowadays. I dun really like it. I hardly joke like the past. everything change so lifeless. I guess... I'm just thinking too much. But the 1 week off from work really makes a different. I somewhat feel better now. *And happy overslept and not rushing to get to work today* Wahahha!



3rdly, I made a few new friends. Some in school, some thru WLNY. Haha. Life. I kinda lost touch with my dear Shiwei and Christina eversince my school started. I somehow.. lost some connection with them. I'm sorry. I missed the fun time with my buddies. I was just watching the TV on the show on Volleyball, and I recalled, I was trying to join the beach volleyball team back in poly, but there wasn't such cca tt time.. thinking bout it, i missed the beach man.. i'm gonna get a volleyball soon and start hitting the beach more often.. with the beach volleyball game with papa~! (haha, he said he was the champion for such sport.. dun play play ah)



Lastly, yes. U know what I wanna say. Him. I still like him as much as few months ago. My feeling didn't go off, coz we met up again. on the 27 Jun. Tt day I was at zouk with Ms L and Mr G. Hahah, I thought I vowed nv to go clubbing with Mr G?!?!?! Damn shit. I asked Azhar along, and paid partial of his entrance lo! Idiot. Thought I finally can avoid paying coz at last my citibank credit card is here.. but nvm la, take it as paying up for the beer lo. Oops. I just realised I didn't return Ms L the beer money... hahah. Okay, back to topic. As usual, I couldn't enjoyed myself even when I'm out for clubbing. Sick. I can't stop thinking bout him when I drink. In fact is every moment I've been thinking of him la. I'm so loyal and faithful. Haha! I msged him tt nite, and was at Changi V. I missed him so much until I put them off (my fren I meant) and flee to meet up with him at 1:30am. A good time together, but was a short one. I didn't have much chance to pour out my feeling for him. But it's ok. there's always the chance, if tt's gonna be our fate. Somehow, I just wanna trust my instinct. I still believe he has feeling for me, though I read up so much and can tell he's a player. Yah. A player. I'm just a stupid fool. But my heart has been eaten up by him (as said by Delia). I'm dead. Hahahahahha. Like I say, I dunwanna think so much. If I'm his, I will be his. If I dun belong to him, someone else will just come in, at the right time. I dun empower my fate, so be it. I just want a carefree life, and get someone who loves me. This day will come one day. :)



Okay, last bit b4 I call it a day. I went for my wakeboarding last Sat after my last exam ended on Fri (actually went to KTV wiith the classmate after exam, and it was really fun) I finally got up! Cool. I love it. I like the sport very much. But dunno y I got bitten by insect. A number of bites on my arms and back now. itch. But the nice moment were captured. NICEEE!!!

Everything is just like a breeze

Everything is just like a breeze.. So fast.. I can't really catch up sometimes. Trying to catch my breathe everytime as I moved on.

My feeling is quite down now, especially when I try to stop myself from writing to him. So painful. When i told myself that, I tried to slp, so that I could stop thinking for a moment. I'm so tire, so tire. I cried last nite, after listening to Better in Time. Leona's songs are really great. I've fallen in love with her voice.

Better now.. at least I cried it out. Guess it has stored in my heart for too long, and I can't get going.
Yesterday was out with Shiwei. First time without interruption in between. We just hang out @ the orchard road, got my CDs, listen to music and sat @ a corner to look out for cute guys. None. Where on earth were they @? Mostly @ the pub (we were guessing). Haha. But it was a pleasant nite with shiwei. We enjoyed sitting down aand watch the nite pass. Just dun wanna get home too early on a Friday nite. I'm bored. Too bored. It just made me can't stop thinking of him. So suffocating today, but it was worse on Thu (that day was the labour day, n I was @ home rotting).

I'm gonna start my bridging course on Mon. I'm gonna get busy with things. A little bit of stressed out now, n I get tire very easily. Dun really like it. I need some chill out, but my friends dun drink, and those who drinks, will just make me drunk. I dun like that. Haiz.

Boring boring.

A perfectionist's mind.

Good day. It's Christina's Birthday. Happy birthday, my bestie. And yesterday was Yating's birthday. She's my nursery schoolmate. Goodness. My longest friend of 19 years, and first time I wished her a happy birthday. It's awesome.

Today, I'm going for my teeth extraction *ssss*... i can't imagine i loss 4 teeth over a night. Scary. I told him (by dropping him a message).

Christina treated me a movie just now, it's called the 'Definitely, Maybe'. The movie was nice.. but i can't concentrate (though I tried to), coz it was soo cold in the theatre that I wanna pee.. haha.. but i really endure till the last bit. She cried while watching.. I think it's nice, but I didn't cry. I can understand the story.. hmm, and I think the ending was good.. dun see the point for crying here la..

For the moment, I feel.. heavy, loaded. Is that the word to use? I don't know. I talked to Chris, the work & my feeling. I've been feeling so much. For work, for him. So tire and stressful. haiz. I wish to msg him these:

"3 words for u:
I love you.
4 words that I'm feeling right now:
I'm missin' u alot
5 words that have been all along in my mind:
I wanna be with you."

I dunwanna write these stuff to him anymore. Perhaps he just prefers the hardcore girl. I can't show too much of my dependency on him, coz he don't like (I guess so). I'm strong, remember? The perfectionist and the independent young lady. That's me la, the Virgo's charisma.

Good nite.

ehhh...well. that's life.

Soo.. many things. Too many things to look at.. boss handing over to me, saying gonna split job btw me and my colleague. Think I'm a big mouth.. didn't manage to keep the little secret that she's coming over to help us in Compliance Team. Aaahahahah. Duncare. This kinda thing dunneed to keep it low profile.. bleh. But seems like I'm gonna play a big part after boss left. Haiz.. I'm so tire. I hope they will get me a lappy.. i dunwanna take my boss one.. so Dirty (n always seeing her scratching the head), guess i will pour out lotsa dandruff and what.. some biscuit crisp from the lappy if i overturn it. KNS! Yewks. Can't stand ppl who are sooo.. Dirty. Y ah?

Ppl don't realise that they're damn ugly and gross when they did some unglam stuff.. like digging nose in front of ppl (although @ home), scratching their scalp until bits of crispy skin drop out (on the bus, especially those baldding uncles), or like scratching their armpits (yewks!) then start touching some other stuff, or like sneezes and then touch somewhere else without realising their smelly saliver on their hand, or like SNEEZE unglammly and spreading the super smelly saliver across the ROOM! GROSS!!! these ppl, I sometimes really wanna give them a hard whack on their head man! (better not, or i will dirty my hand).. yewks! but saying them, i guess sometimes u will start to do these gross thingy n without realising it...hahahaah. Of coz I'm not that gross. But I just simply can't stand somebody begin to dig their nose happily while watching the TV then *fling*.. arghhh. At least grab a piece of tissue and clean the ** on it la! yee-aarrhhh.

Anyway.. I'm just bore. I dunno wanna write what. Bore, tire, vex, in vain, a little not feeling good, bad skin, outbreak, missing someone terribly, knock my kneecap after sea cockroaches run up my feet (damn thing!), smelly shoes.. blah blah blah.. aiyah, all the bad bad stuff come so near to me. I HATE THESE!!! GROSS! Fuck.

I'm just throwing my anger here again. Cool. I'm going to sleep.

Surprise.. Yah. Surprises.

I just wanna say something... ughh.. been sooo tire for these days. Guess I've over enjoyed myself over the weekend last week.

Though I didn't get to enjoy myself @ zouk (with Ms L & Mr G) on Fri nite, but it was fun on the next nite, where Sean asked me to join along for MieNa's bf's gang @ The Arena. It's nice there.. RnB music was good (the live band sings well). I vomited.. well coz I'm too full I guess. Hey, at least I had managed to walk home.

Then followed by Sunday, went to Bishan for some praying respect to my 'brother', uncle and auntie? Hmm.. I made some wishes.. I dunno if it will fulfill, but I wish it could. I wish I wish.
And I met Chris to go Swensen @ Changi Airport T3 (my 1st time there!). My treat to her for celebrating my promotion and also congrats to her for moving on to a new job soon. :D

Then today, soooo slpy for the whole day (and guess what, it's already Thur morning now, n I have to get up earler for my briefing @ marina mandarin hotel! goodness). But the key thing is:

My boss (she's my supervisor actually.. just used to say tt she's my boss) is leaving. Shucks. Is that the reason why I got a double promotion? I don't know, I guess that is part of the reason. I'm kinda worry now. That's y I'm so alert @ this moment. Shucks. And my bridging course will be starting soon in beginning of May (if I got accepted by UOL?)... I'm really lost @ the point when she told me that. I only questioned myself "Why? How? Really going?" Seems like a karma.. e previous time i got extended for my contract, right after tt my previous 'boss' left too.. and now? Hey..that's not a good sign... I may move on quick, but I guess Money is more important than the title tight? Though a slight jump in my pay, but i guess i'm still lowly paid. Goodness, this company is really stingy.

Phew. I shall end here... Really really tire. Really feeling sooo Fuck up these days. Arghh. Bad days.

Just blogging.

I just looked through my past blogs. I realised I'm a late blogger. No wonder I've got such bad dark eye rings.. Haa.

Looking through the blogs, I feel sympathy for myself.. I really had a very bad love luck. I don't know why. Guys that I've came across are all kinds of weirdo. They made me had heartaches. How come ah?

Anyway, some good stuff to share with all.. I've got my bonus, increment, and then now, Promotion. Ha. Last yr I was still complaining in my blog that I'm going to take my half month and go, coz company don't see my effort. And guess what, I've got a double promotion. Wow. It's just my luck I guess. And now that I'm gonna start studying, I'm just worry that I may not perform well. I hope everything will work well. At least I've got appreciated now. Thanks. I'm a Executive now okay.. SW is damn envious of me now.. I will give both her and Chris a treat soon.. :)

I don't know if I sounded ok, or will he understand me.. and didn't realise that at least my past 3 blogs have been talking bout him. I msged him this morning.. a long good one. But looking at the way how he treated me, it seems the same, same way as Mr J treated me. Oh boy. Please tell me I'm wrong.

I'm listening to Mariah Carey's new song - Touch My Body. This song is nice.. (but not the MTV). I'm recently into Rihanna's song. So shakey booty nice. "Please don't stop the music". I need to listen to it everyday, otherwise it's like something missing. Wow. Music really plays a great part in my life.

So will I be getting my Coach Bleecker Duffler bag? Hope got stock. I want it. Shiwei has helped me to make order, but might not have the colour that I want. U think the store will go make the order? I hope they will leh.

Yah, 23 Mar was the date when I got my driving license a year ago. Happy anniversary. Same day, 3rd granduncle passed away, but he's the 3rd year anniversary. I kinda missed him. I rmb that was the time when I just started blogging. Reminds me of many thing. My trip to australia.. wow.. amost 3 years ago, and my little dipsy, also getting to 3 years old.. haha.

Slping soon. Good nite.

Hahaha! I just can't stop laughing (wakeboarding)

Haha! Damn Funny, I can't stop laughing when I watch myself getting up. Fat thighs.. wahahaha!!

Wakeboarding in HOT sun!

Woohoo.. today's wakeboarding is really... GREAT! (I will upload my video the next round!)

Overall, it's fun, and very tiring. Whole body is aching now.. but I think it's worth the money (each pax bout $58). And best part, we've got our tan... I'm like a lobster now.. haha. Got a big bruise on my thigh.. but can't recall when i got it. The ppl who turned up are AUD, May, Sean, my bro & Addaline jie jie. :D

It's really really fun. All teasing me say my boobs big.. yahh.. thanks to dad lo. Poh Poh one is big, and pass down the gen to me lo.. LOL.

Anyway, am really tire now. (n I drop him a msg in wholivesnearyou.. er... maybe tt's my last hope..) haha. Somehow, I find him quite good looking after seeing him.. but he didn't leave me much impression the moment we first chit chat. lalala. I'm real happy today, maybe coz of the wakeboarding ba. Just that didn't go to zouk. Sian. Nobody wanna go with me. Laura the liar. dunlike her. :(

Good nite to all. Yawn.

Where should I start..

Alrite.. here's my stories.. Big changes to my life. I will shoot at 1 go.

My Love
I hate it. He's avoiding me. Not responding to me. I don't know what the freak is this happening. Maybe I tried to hard. What I wanted is just a simple Love. He don't even care bout me. We met on 29 Feb. An unlucky day for me. I nv want this day to happen in my life again. Things worked well initially, though he was late and he went in to the bar himself. Whatever, I didn't wanna argue over such small matters. I can pay for my own expenses (and I did). All I wanted is to meet him. But if I could rewind time back, I wish I didn't meet him that day. Things turned out badly @ the end. I cried in front of him (coz I was quite drunk).. everything was in a mess. Super messy. I cried on the way home. I think I was very upset the way he treated me. It wasn't the way he was the first time we met. I don't know why was he doing that to me.. guess he did that on purpose. But since that day, I've been thinking badly for him. I tried my best effort to comfort him through texting, coz there's no other way we can talk (he don't pick up my call either). Today will be the 20th day since we met. No reply from him at all. I was dead worry then, but only when I saw him online (in wholivesnearyou.. haha.. that kinda website?) on Tue. He's fine. I know. So i blah him a msg there saying, "so you're online huh? when do u wanna stop seeing me until?".. pretty pissed off here.. but anyway i knew he will go offline. whatever. He's just a loser. jerk. stupid guy who doesn't know there's a silly gal waiting for him down here.

Y are all these guys existing in this world!!! Can they be more understanding? What's the problem there! I'm really not that possessive.. am I (I'm just agressive.oops)? Did I just try too hard? Anyway, I stopped my smsing to him since yesterday. I stopped. I told myself, that's enough. U can't talk to the air for the rest of the 2 months. It's crazy. He's not appreciating your love. U've got to move on.

I just have no luck in Love. Damn. Unfortunately, I couldn't see other guys now. I'm just being loyal. So I leave it to him to make the move. Silly me.

My study
I fake an MC ytd. Haha. Coz I wanna go and certified my certificates and do my registration for PSB. Everything was done ytd. That's pretty fast. Felt so guilty for faking that MC. Sorry to my boss, sorry to the Doctor.. I just don't like to tell lies. So next move is, WAIT for the admin officer to get back to me in Apr. And if application is successful, means I'm gonna start my bridging courses in May. Damn, the timetable are so pack! OMG. I can't imagine I'm studying for the straight Mon, Tue, Thu then Fri. But this can help me to cut down 1 year of study. That's worth it (of coz in terms of money too!). Hurray, I'm gonna study soon. I can't wait to start actually. Guess I can take this opportunity to slim down, coz no time to eat dinner. Hahah.

My Braces
Yup, in progress now. Already installed the brackets, they are hurting my gums, but at least my oral hygiene improves. Hee. I'm gonna wear braces soon! 15th Apr will do my extraction of teeth (of 4.. damn painful lo), 22nd Apr will put on the braces!!! Yuppie!! I started talking weirdly.. haha.. coz I always feeling sth in my mouth.. and always bite my cheek wall.. ouch. Can't have my lovely chocolates, sweet talk with pearls.. sooo SAD, and that's going to be 2 years you know. I've already spent like 700 for dental liao.. sobsob.. expensive to be pretty. It's ok, I may have slimmer face next time.. (My face is so short and round.. i don't like it! :( )

Tomorrow
I'm going for wakeboarding! Hurray, my first time lei!! Hee. Gonna be exciting. It's Good Friday tmr (so fun). And at nite, if I'm not wrong, I should be hitting Zouk, coz got free entry!! heee.. suppose to go chill out tonite, but everyone not in the mood.. so postpone to next week, at least everyone gets the pay and maybe the bonus as well? Hee.. wondering how much I'm getting for my bonus lei.. hahah.. *Drooling* Then can pay for my coach bleecker duffler liao... Wahahahah!

Okay, time to pen-off (tire and stink. Oops). Gonna take a shower then head to bed. Wakeboarding, here I come (God, please bless me with Great Sun tmr from 10-2pm! Thank u :3)!

=Busy little Woman=

Agitated!!!! I want to screammmm!!!

i hate that feeling. i can't shake it off.. he said somehow he likes me too... but he's acting soo strange. Y is he asking me out for drinks only? y no other stuff. I hate that. we've not seen each other after that time. The infatuation feeling is burning off slowly, probably coz I'm already used to that for the past 2 weeks, but i still don't feel good. Argh... sounds complicating right? That's how I'm feeling now. He actually spoilt my feeling for him.. he asked me out for 2 times... 1st time i didn't agree, coz I got freakingly no mood (we got some arguement over it). Yesterday he asked, I agreed, but he turned down the session coz last min got thing's on. And today, he just sms me saying might not meet up today again, coz he need to pass the car to his bro. hey Ppl, u know I'm staying all the way @ east and to travel down to town takes me more than an hour.. he thinks I dun dress up slightly to meet him.. he thinks I'm not understanding coz he really got stuff on, then he's damn insensitive over a girl I WOULD SAY. Can I dump him like that? I wish to.. I'm tire of this game. I dunwan such a complicating life. it really suffocates me. Damn.

Studying... guess I'm self-prepared to go for study. I'm looking at courses at SIM. Hope my 2 other buddies are also studying... but if not, guess I'm gonna do it on my own... afterall I'm studying for myself.. not for anyone else. It's gonna be something tiring for the rest of the year... but if I could occupied myself with studies, guess I could think lesser for the courtship... it's has covered 1/2 of my entire brain. I need a rest.

Ahhh... then other pissing off stuff.. my dad.. he's superly insensitive.. I wonder how my mom has been tolerating him for the past years... he wants me to type an insurance letter for him! wtf.. what is the matter with him... I dun even know what he wants in the letter, he just keep pestering me to get the ink cartridge and get the letter typed ready for him. Damn it.. I have not been so agitated by him for such a long time.. he just thinks he's the king of the house and happily instructing ppl to do his way. Shit, i dun even give a damn thing for that.

Argh.. I'm just venting my anger here. I wouldn't be soo pissed off when u ppl see me on the street... I just need a good break.. and a carefree life + a good relationship mah.
Yewks~ Life's so terrible for me ;~(

Hi there!

Boo!

New year has came, and next the CNY... bought many clothes but seems boring.
Hmmm... "Slim down!" I say. working hard on it!

Yeah, I hope I'm thinking neither right nor left. I'm thinking STRAIGHT. I like someone. Someone that I only met once. I know that's crazy, but this funny feeling keeps clinging on my heart... Kinda annoying. I can't be too straight forward, but I can't just stay there. Well, 1 end of my mind keeps saying - "U like him? Don't know? Ask him la!", while the other side will always says, "Steady steady. U don't want something like the past happened again". Argh... it's the whole day thingy, it just keep bothering me. Haisay! I'm just a normal human being lei... y so torturing?

Anyway... my navel is sooo painful. Sucks. I'm angry (with the scar). What am I supposed to do to it huh? :(

I wanna make some change to myself. Oh, did I mention, I just cut my hair really short. Yup, but it's difficult to style. Haiz. I want it shorter, but I guess it will looks more horrible than now, especially in the morning. Hahaha. Better don't think of that.

I want to get a Coach Duffle Bag! I just love it after I saw it on the magazine!!! Aizzz... I guess it gonna spend me a bomb. Anyway, I just get some cheap ones to standby. Ok, I shall stop buying.

Argh... putting braces. This was something that I've been mentioning for long. I guess I should be doing it after CNY, becoz that's the time I will get my bonus!!! yeppie!!

Self-entertaining...

my phone's button spoil!!!! argh.. less than a month only u noe... muz faster send down for repair.. who noes i can get a new phone? :( veri sad...

haiz... i wanna go for holiday... but i got no $$$.. tell me where can earn more bucks? tell me pls...

think i put on weight again! argh! annoying! irritating. Bad skin again... wah... y all the bad stuff approach me... SHOO!!! go away! I wan some luck!. Faster slim down so that my Mr Q will come soon... woahahah

*I'm self entertaining myself. Just let me be.* Thanks.

Family Day

Hey yah!!! Today's weather is really GREAT! I love the sun! n my first ride on the Jet Ski, the keel boat, and last but not least... THE BANANA BOAT! Omg!!! I love the sea sport! Thanks to the weather, now I'm pretty tan now. Love the color of my skin.. N I sold 1 pair of earrings during the flea market (which I ended up playing banana boat n my colleagues help me to sell my stuff.. lol)

but... the stomach still very fair lei.. haiz.. my navel piercing... turning bad... jialat. Any idea how to reduce scarring? It's pretty ugly now... godness. It has been like 7 months already.. but the scar is still there, n worse, the piercing goes the wrong direction... how ah? release n repierce? or let the scar heal? or stay put? :( someone pls help me... sometime it hurts u noe...

N yah, yesterday went down to DXO... not good. Food not nice also. I think today's buffet taste better. But i still hangover... haha, coz it's free flow of drink... but too bad, the place wasn't fun... so i got a prob of continuing when i got tire. Should have went down to zouk right... haiz...

Tah-rah~

Guess what, yesterday I went for my first KTV session (oh, should be 2 days ago... coz it's 12.41am, 30 Oct now)... hahaha, it's fun. I had my maraton singing session from 11am to 2pm, almost non-stop. I quite like to sing there, n surprisingly, Mr Toh got a great voice. Next time can jio him out for singing liao. N coincidentally, I met Hong Jie when I reached somerset, way abit early for my KTV session, coz too long nv drop by to town, forgotten the timing for travelling from Tampines to Orchard... haha.. so we actually met after my singing session n had her lunch together. Then we went down to look for Chris @ her shop. Well. We went for a 2nd lunch. I'm just filled with excitement, and with the songs runnin throu' my head whereever I go... I love singing! haha. Glad that I didn't spend a buck on clothes yesterday... perhaps I didn't bring my shopping mood along la! Coz I was getting ready for my new PDA phone... I think I should be getting it soon! Yeepee!!!

Then today... dunno why so busy... arranging this n that, updating my boss things, check this check that... super tiring. Only fulfillment today... I saw this handsome chap @ level 8... guess he's an intern there. Good to see cute young guy (Finally lo!) in the company. Guess he'll be there awhile la, coz HRD didn't send out any email on new staff (as in him la), so prob he wun be here for too long... always see him & 2 other of his friend walking ard.. so shiok. I'm thinking of boys again... Haiyoh!
Bad sign, bad sign...

OH... I'm being opt for the communal committee in my company.. stupid thing... but I just enjoy doing these... to kill my time in office, n also giving excuses to surf the net la... lol! Guess we going to racky the place (DXO) next week! Yeepee!!! I need a good break!!! I miss clubbing~ :)

Haiz, tmr got meeting again. Sian.. my report is not done yet. Haiz... pls spare me some air!!!!

Just a quick one

So many things come and pass by my times... time really flies.
First I've got promoted,
Next my colleagues got married,
then I catching up with my buddies,
coming one is the thorough healthcheck
while the on-going ones are I've been trying to keep fit, plus learning rollerblade from scratch and bought a new part of rollerblade!

Guess what comes next? Yes, my hp contract is ending soon, so I'm gonna get a new phone soon! But right now I'm just worry bout my expenses for the coming months. I wanna study, wanna put braces... blah blah blah! Shit.. soo many things queueing to take their turn in the couple of months... Can I have more $$$ ? Yes... annual bonus coming too! (Yeah.. I'm waiting very HARD! and my tongue's dropping!!!) I'm targetting to get the Atom Life from O2... The one white in color looks so cool! Gosh... I can't wait for my hp contract to end!!! God! Y am I so greedy! Damn it. I need to control my fingers from getting burn. Ouch!

Help me mom... I really need that money... :(

No love life now. Boring topic.

Good nite.

Not another year...

WOw... what a fast week. But I'm glad, I have turned 22 already! Don't really know how to describe the feeling... hmmm.. it's just peaceful and a quiet one. I like the kinda feeling. One thing sad was that I actually planned to go Sentosa on that day, but bad sky tricked me... it rained and dark clouds formed for the whole morning (it was later bright and sunny in the afternoon! Goodness!) and so our (both Saad & myself) beach outting was ruined. What a waste!!!! Eeeekkkk... she purposely take her off day to accompany me, and yet the stupid weather... hmmm... But really appreciate her company (and a pretty card & photo frame from her), we were spending the day at movie, food, spotlight and daiso ... a fulfulment day though. Thought perhaps I could get the sun the next day, so went down to swim in the morning... who knows, again it was a very cloudy day... hmmmm I want to SUNTAN!!!! But thart day got an earthquake strikes in Indonesia. Pretty scary, I do feel the shake when I was in the pool, I'm not bluffing!

Thursday, I met up with my gang (Shiwei, Jason & Hong Jie).. we went down to Bugis for steamboat. The food was not really nice, but we have a fun time chit-chatting. Best of all, the present, though not something which I most wanted, but it's not too bad afterall. The Eclat D'aepege Lavin Perfume & a forever friends' jewellery box. Must have cost them pretty much. Thanks to them (especially to my sweetie-Shiwei)

I'm pretty gladful that many friends and colleagues remember my bday. This shows that I'm being remembered, don't u think so too? I've received many greetings from them.. Really thanks to them all. N of coz my family, we had went to Sakae Sushi for a big feast last Saturday (I'm really statisfied with the meal.. haha)

Then today, the roller bladding class supposed to start today, but stupid sky keep drizzling in the morning, so got to cancel again... what the hell... Please grant us a great day next Sunday (God, I'm really praying hard for a blue sky! Please grant my wish...)

Today went visiting grandaunt, she looks pretty well. I like her to be cheerful.

Haiz, tmr got to work again, not another long week... How long do u think I can hold onto this job? I really dunno... I'm really so BORE over here. I want a change... go study? or better job? I hope for both :) Nonetheless, I do hope for a good love path coming ahead. Please grant my wishes!!!!

~I said "I want a good life". ~
+Peace+

Hi, I'm back again

I CUT my HAIR!
whoo woo... Really cool! I like the style pretty much. But best of all, i feel Fresh... and peace.

I dun know what really trigger me to go for the haircut... perhaps... I just need a break. But my dream of getting long hair that reaches my waistline should be getting further.. haiz... Whatever. What is gone has gone! Yeap...

Believe me? I start to find myself back. Like? I see people ard me (my nice pals) leaving the company... one after another.. I was up and down, up and down... and looking myself in the mirror everyday... I'm always so worry, and so aimless. But now, I decided, I should plan further, regardless to my career path, my life goal... Haha... here I come... I will work towards u!

No boyfriend, no money, no fun, no excitement, no good talking khakis in the company... it's really miserable. At least they (those who have left or leaving soon) have goal. They told me, leave the company then... But what bother me the most - the bonus? Or my responsibility to the company? Not to say, of course the latter. Coz everyone knows how lousy the company pays me. Then GO! I told everyone, yes, I will. I've set my aim that I will take my first half v.b, then hack care and go. What bout the remaining? No... probably not, unless the company promote me? "Tan gu jiu wu lo" (wait long will have - in hokkien). Haiz.

Someone whom I've been talking bout in the past blogs... well... that was part of the reason why I still tangling in the company till now... I've been lying to myself that opportunity will come, just trust myself. Perhaps, I'm just being over-confident. If there is really feeling in him, there wouldn't be such a hassle. Haa. Silly me. Think i watch too much show (花样少年少女is really nice!!! I'm so envy of the couple) Whatever that I'm suppose to do has also been done. I've no much worry. I know what is call love - holding too tight might not be the only way, and will never works. Letting go may be a better way of looking forward to the future. I believe that the right person is not far from me... so please dun let me wait too long~ (haha... I"m talking to you, god)

THANKS to all my friends that lend me your listening ears (whether you are reading these or not). Why thanks you? Coz lending me your ears for me to nag has always been great. I love you pals! (I might be too carried away, but I'm really expressing every things from deep down... gee*)

what have happened?

is god playing me like a fool?
y is there such a coincident?
i just got to let things go off bits by bits, and coming to the very last...

y does he appear right in front of me at such place, such timing?

didn't we just got a a tiff over the net? I thought that should be the end. No more talks btw us.

everything just swing and go so fast... proof! Perhaps I really tink too much. if only i could take things slowly by the pace, we shouldn't have ended up in such a situation. I din't even get the chance to have a chat with him. hmmm... did i really over react then that has cause wat happen as at today? I did try to cool down, but it seems like I'm looking things more from my angle. I dun wish for the state like this, if I noe, I wouldn't have acted so impulsive. Form of regret? haha, I guess so. Maybe, just like the old ones say, "有缘千里一定会再见，无缘的话，怎么强求都不会有幸福的。 只但愿一切是个梦，梦醒了一切又是美丽的。"

I just wish that my dreams would have come true one very fine day. God, may I?
- Jmin